For the past 2 weeks Iv basically eaten shite, made no attempts to stay on track with my healthy eating and generally thrown my determination out of the window.
I feel really guilty! but the fact is the more guilty I feel, the more I eat to compensate that feeling of disgust. Lastnight I had an awful dream which was probabley attributed to all of this negativity towards my lack of weight loss and physical activity recently.
I dreamt that I walked into a crowded bar and suddenly found myself being laughed at and judged by others; people were sniggering at my size and making comments about how ugly/obese i was. On closer inspection I discovered that the 'strangers' in the bar were in fact my nearest & dearest family & friends. This upset me greatley and the details of this particular dream remained clear in my mind all day.
Interpreting my dream from lastnight...I realise that perhaps I DO care about what other people think of me and how I look. One things for sure, I NEED to get back on track with this healthy eating plan.
Tomorrow is another day! Tonight I plan to rid my house of chocolates and any other unhealthy foods so I can really get back on track. Im going to retain the memory of that upsetting dream and use it to motivate me to lose some serious weight.....
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