Last week I had a stomach bug, only now seven days later do I feel totally fine. Having ate little the majority of last week I certainly made up for it over these past 2 days......to say Iv had a case of the munchies would be an understatement. Since Sunday Iv indulged in chocolate, Marshmellows (which i dont particularly like!) hot chocolate with whipped cream, crisps, x2 McDonalds, fizzy drinks, treacle sponge, ice-cream, a fry up and much much more. To make matters worse I had a lovely visit from two of my most favourite people ever (my Little sis & good friend Kirsty), on the down side whenever we all get together all we do is shop, eat and LAUGH!
My body isn't used to all of this bad food and not only am I disgusted in myself but I am also feeling icky inside. I think the turning point for these last few days of unhealthy eating was when i stepped on the weighing scales (once again my arch-nemisis) after a whole week of illness to find Id hardly lost anything YET AGAIN!
I think I'm loosing site of the bigger picture and forgetting why its so important I do this now instead of years down the line. I need a good old kick up the buttock but appear to be finding every darn excuse...' oh Christmas is so close by what's the point, il start after New Year!' Andrew suggested that I helped keep my focus by putting a photo of myself on the fridge from when i was alot bigger....strange? maybe it could just work?
Tomorrow we are off to Lincoln for the Christmas market and Im going to try and resist eating everything that's not glued down. I can almost face not loosing any more weight until the new year but putting any on at this Sundays weigh-in would really well and truly crush what little spirit I have at the moment.
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